A lot on my mind...

So lately I have been super busy with many things on my mind. First off like I mentioned before I am a new Tia (Aunt) and have been pondering the idea of having a baby sometime. With that thought another thought/stressor/idea comes to mind, GRAD SCHOOL! Don't get me wrong I love school and enjoy what I am learning but quite frankly I feel like I need to hurry up and finish so that I can have my life back. I mean I want to be able to do as I wish when I wish and not have to be glued to my laptop typing papers or reading. I have kept straight As but at a high price, MY FREEDOM! I am such a procrastinator and with school I am so last minute that I rush and then feel bombarded with things to finish. With that thought comes, running. I have started to really enjoy running again. I like running outdoors without any music because it gives me time to be with me. I pray, think, and of course worry. Which then leads to another thought, see I said I had a lot on my mind, work. I love working and I love what I do but I am over it too. I have started to like the four year old boogers. They have made me want to have one too but then I think, how am I going to work educating children while my own kids are being watched by someone else. I don't think it's fair to them or me. Now the catch is...I have to work so we can pay off our bills and expenses and if I have to work than when will I have time for our own kids. Hmm so it's a catch 22, darned if I and darned if don't. So like I said before I have so much on my mind and with it all it makes me want to take a nap and wake-up whenever I can be a kid again. It was so much easier then. Oh which by the way brings another thought, ja, crafts. I want to run in to my little craft closet and craft for hours but when? With school and work I barely have time to be a wife like I want to. I guess I have to stick to my agenda and finish school ASAP then everything else will fall in to place, God willing of course. Gosh, I know God sends us challenges but this is a triathlon of some sort. Hey another thought, just kidding...Now may the drama continue!!